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Writing, Painting like Monet [Sep. 8th, 2010|06:59 pm]
Hi there.

I suddenly miss writing and earlier, found myself poignantly browsing my poems saved in 1kb notepads neatly compiled and chronologically-arranged in one folder. I can't believe I've been doing this since 2002.

Is maturity inversely proportional to how good one is in acknowledging and painting one's emotions over a huge life-canvas? I am not sure if I still have that same passion as I once had when I was younger. Was it just because I had more time to kill then and those free moments allow me to think about lots of stuff to recall/research and describe about?

I'm kind of shy to admit but I really do want to liken my poetry to Monet's paintings - hastily done to get the right set of tones before the light shifts and changes the setting. My poems are hastily done as well to capture the emotions I am having at that very moment while jotting the words down. My first attempts are usually the final products. It feels like cheating if I try to drastically modify a part or a stanza.

Sometimes, I fall in love with a word. If I do, I try to build branches of relevant words from it until I come up with ideas for a scene or story. If they look good in sweet, short lines and are naturally creating its own rhythm, then I consider it promising for a poem. Sounds stupid but I find it fun. I miss doing that.

It's 6:53am. Time to go home. Yes, I'm in a graveyard shift and I just want to escape from all things done and performed in Excel and SAP-GUI. I'm excited to hit the hay and rest. I am hoping to post more here soon.
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"I cannot relate to 90% of humanity" [Aug. 24th, 2010|07:04 pm]
That line is from the movie Ghost World.

If you get a ruler and decide that these feelings I am carrying are exact and measurable in widths and that a foot represents the entirety of that line/quote, you'd get a decent 11"8. Thick.

I cannot comprehend. My intentions were pure. I just want to help and at least, make one life better on this planet.

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At the office, procrastinating [Jan. 12th, 2010|11:28 am]
[Tags|, , , , ]
[Current Location |Office]
[Current Music |Office-related conversations]

I do admit that writing is not exactly my forte (but it doesn't mean that there is an exisitng forte for me at this point in time) but I enjoy it. I think that it is a primary thing to consider...if you enjoy it.

I miss doing this. Trying to make a coherent and respectable entry for my journal and always ending up as flaky as my previous entries with thought-crumbs of undistinguishable theme and faux oraganization of ideas. This second paragraph is already an impending disaster.

But I am smiling while writing this.
You see, my hand, heart and my brain grew fonder of journal composition as I have been bereft of this for several months.

Here, feeling like a grown-up - being in the office and hair in tight pony tail - but not quite.

My friend (who says/admits to herself that her life is piled up with issues ranging from pre-puberty to serious type of dilemmas) asked me if she is already in the stage of what they call the mid-life crisis. I told her, "Silly, you're too young for that."

So how must we term it? The (first) quarter-life crisis?
How do we define, as quarter-old beings, a crisis?

To my Joligs-LJ friends, let's LJ again, shall we? Hehe.

- - -

My lips secretly curve to a smile when I see high school kids on their way to school - to my old school where I spent my pre-school, elementary and high school life. I was a loyalty awardee, obviously.

I'm happy Jo and I experienced the same high school - when projects and impromptu graded recitations are your daily challenges.
High school is immortal.
It is cool and comforting to think that we tread the same corridors and took the same pop quizzes - that we shared that juvenile concept of invincibility...regardless if we did our homeworks or not.

- - -

Ok, back to work. :)
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On the subject of: Daily [Nov. 22nd, 2009|12:51 am]
[Current Mood |hungryhungry]
[Current Music |none, btw.]

well, i thought
"humor me"
but then it wasn't

a nudge
a push
a hurricane

but a fairy tale
will never be

typically familiar
the truth


as always


hey, i miss this. big time.

i started reading again (i bought a book: Good Omens by Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman. I read the foreword, which i don't..most of the time.)

and started writing again.

even if my work schedule sucks

and mosquitoes are currently feasting on my big, fat legs.
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Under Pale Skies [Jun. 27th, 2009|02:11 pm]
under pale skies
well shut
windows across
fear you'd let go
     of my hand

every word
an inch deeper than before
i sway with every say
i try to see beyond visible
permittable view
and must i fail
at long lengths of waves
i try again

gathering here
beneath and into
selfless bay of thoughts

i follow
     and i love
     like never before
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New LJ Layout [Jun. 25th, 2009|09:23 pm]
this is it. the ultimate sign.
the sign which means i'm always home, broke, and having all the time in the world to try different lj layouts.
nevertheless, i found a ridiculously cool layout for countingfridays and weekendworkshop! :D

applause to thefulcrum for all the neat-looking layouts.
seriously, i didn't encounter any so-so design. every layout deserves a thumbs up!

. . . .

i miss my friends. :c
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Solar Eclipse of July 2009 [Jun. 21st, 2009|08:45 pm]
Philippine Astronomical Society (PAS) will be sending a team to China to observe the most-awaited total solar eclipse this year! (If I only have the money, my opening line would be: "China, here I come!"...but no. Haha!)

We, the poor ones, will have a local observation instead. The location isn't finalized yet. Message me if you're interested and I'll give you the complete info.
In fact, PAS always welcomes anyone who wants to join our meetings, seminars and observations. This group would probably be the coolest and the kindest people you'll meet. :D
Ask any astronomy-related questions (or maybe any geeky stuff) bothering you, no matter how silly you think your question is, we're always excited to try and answer them!

So going back to the event, I really hope the sky would cooperate. Locally, we will just witness a PARTIAL SOLAR ECLIPSE because the totality will only be in parts of China, India, South of Japan and along a certain portion of the Pacific. (projected on Earth, the black dot - shadow caused by the Moon covering the Sun, is the umbra where the totality will be witnessed and the gray shadow is the penumbra where the partial shall occur.)

from http://www.eclipse.org.uk
"There you go...that small archipelagic country...under the gray circle"

On the morning of July 22, 2009, we will witness an almost 50% of our sun covered by the moon! You will see crescent-shaped shadows. It'll be crazy. Hehe.


Metro Manila, Philippines

First Contact (The Moon nears the edge of the Sun) :
8:33 am
Maximum Eclipse (49% part of the Sun covered):
9:43 am
Fourth Contact (Last contact of the Moon from the edge of the Sun):
11:01 am

Clear skies!
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Not All Things [May. 20th, 2009|11:57 pm]
[Current Mood |complacentcomplacent]
[Current Music |Tosca - Suzuki]

not all things are bloggable.

Long floating on shipless oceans, I did all my best to smile
'Til your singing eyes and fingers, drew me loving into your isle
And you sang, 'Sail to me, sail to me, let me enfold you
Here I am, here I am, waiting to hold you.

- this song is best heard from elizabeth fraser's voice.
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Sick Jap Game [May. 13th, 2009|01:53 pm]
have you heard of the computer game, rapelay? if not, read it here:

it is the sickest thing i've heard. what the f.ck is wrong with the people who made this horrifying game?
japan has been known for all its eccentricities but this game...it's just too much.
no matter what race, religion or philosophical belief you have, you know that this game is evil.
violence is violence and there aren't any excuses for that. this is blatant discrimination of women.
the government of japan must review their policies because, the sad thing here is,
it's apparently still legal in their country.

here's the news from theinquirer.net:

Japanese dismiss rape game complaint
Legal in Japan
By Nick Farrell
Monday, 11 May 2009, 11:27

HOPES THAT Japan had moved past Shogun era attitudes to women were dashed as a computer game maker whose game awards points to players who rape females brushed off complaints from US rights campaigners.

Yokohama-based games manufacturer Illusion said that the campaign to have the game. "Rapelay" banned in Japan was pointless because it was perfectly legal in Japan.

Spokesman Makoto Nakaoka said he was bewildered by the move as it made games for Japanese tastes and laws. He didn't need to know what was acceptable in the US because it does not try to sell the game there.

Although that is not quite true. As we reported earlier this year the game was on sale on Amazon until someone complained and it was pulled.

New York-based Equality Now launched a campaign this week "against rape simulator games and the normalisation of sexual violence in Japan".

Activists are asked to pen protests to the maker and Prime Minister Taro Aso, arguing the game breaches Japan's obligations under the 1985 Convention on the Elimination of All Forms of Discrimination against Women.

You don't have to be Freud to work out that the game shows a dark side to Japanese attitudes to sex and women. Players earn points for acts of sexual violence, including stalking girls on commuter trains, raping virgins and their mothers, and forcing females to get abortions.

Japan only just bought in a law against making kiddie porn, but the law does not cover actually owning it.

US online retail giant Amazon in February took RapeLay off its websites after receiving complaints but clips of the game were still available this week on popular video sharing websites.

According to AP, a spokeswoman for the Japanese government's gender equality bureau said the office "realises the problem is there" and it is working out what can actually be done about it. Presumably without offending any male in charge by making him give up his Japanese schoolgirl porn.
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STS-125 mission [May. 12th, 2009|09:24 pm]
earlier, at around 2 in the morning, i watched the launch of the space shuttle atlantis, live on CNN.
ooh...i miss this. a lot! it felt so good having to witness such a thing.
my seven-year old dream of being an astronaut (this dream secretly went on until highschool and stopped when i reached first year college when i gave up on my physics degree. lol!), that indispensable and immaculate feeling, came hurling back to me. haha! it felt nice.

but of course, my future of being an astronaut is now a desolate piece of land. i've accepted this fact (it hurts but i must) and is now contented being a member of an astronomical society, teaching kids the wonders of space and probably...unconsciously, passing on to them my childhood dream.

going back. i saw the space shuttle launch and tonight, back to my geeky self, i checked my trusty heavens-above account to see if STS-125 has visible passes. :D

STS-125, a seven-member crew, will be fixing the Hubble Space Telescope. Yey to that!
links about STS-125:
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