When I was younger, I used to think that my dreams are simple but now that I am 29 and trying to lay them out and finally create traction on these dreams, they seem to get more and more tricky.
The pains of being an adult.
On geek mode, adulthood for me is like the law of increased entropy. The complications in a branching structure of one's adult life, if there's such a thing, are inevitable. Order will always move towards disorderly state and never the other way around. It is daunting and overwhelming at times. It is scary. It is more scary for me who is apparently still clueless on awkward 'shall-I-greet him/her' situations. During this stage, you think you know but you fail then you learn and you grow and when you know more, you know nothing and they all unfold right before you like one hell of a 'Lost' series marathon.
Interestingly, creationists argue that life itself is an "order" which arised from chaos just like a plant that grew from scattered seedlings, rain, changing climate and soil with dead, rotting leaves from what used to be an "orderly" plant.
I guess this moment of chaos is what's needed after all to reach a new "orderly" state.
As far as I know, I am not in an orderly state yet (obviously, as this entry sucks big time) but I am learning and a little bird told me it's what matters most. I believe it.