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Why am I not writing? [Jan. 21st, 2014|04:27 pm]
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Writing in this journal is not as easy as it is before when I was young.

Why am I not writing anymore?

Is it because instead of writing, I have already ranted everything to Jo?
It it because I'm fucking busy?
Is it because I've outgrown this?

I'm turning 28 this year and it is giving me the goosebumps.
I started this journal in 2005 and a lot has happened.

2005. What could I be doing on the same day in 2005?
It was a Friday.
I was probably at school, trying to learn how to smoke cigarettes and contemplating on the matter of getting out of Physics because it was just too much for me and that I barely survived the laboratory exercises.

I used to carry a notebook in college just for the things I want to write I call "thought-crumbs" and for my doodles, of course.

Why am I not writing anymore?

I do not feel as confident as before because I know more.
I know now that I suck at this.
I know now that even if I write a hundred entries, it will not help pay the bills or land me to a higher position in the office.
I know now that life will never be fair.
I know now that things do not happen for a reason rather they happen because of previous actions/decisions.
I know now that politics exist practically everywhere.
I know now that the more I know, the more I know that I know nothing.

I have work later and I should be getting dressed.
Why am I writing?
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From: ilovereg
2014-01-23 05:38 am (UTC)
There is nothing stopping us from going back to the things that we once loved to do. Nothing is also stopping us from moving forward too. Except ourselves.

There's no stopping us. You said it yourself, "Why not?"

Write Chary. Writing is you.
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From: countingfridays
2014-01-23 04:33 pm (UTC)
Hi Reg! Just feeling a bit nostalgic, that's all.
I guess I just have outgrown it. But I did write at least for this entry. Haha!
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